This era of good feeling need be accompanied by new accomplishments and experiences. I wrote a letter tonight. I am legendarily restless.

[X] Do a chin-up

posted by paul @ 2:38 AM

I don't think I'm doing it wrong. It will work when it's right, and I have to trust that.

Things became definate and clear as the rain started to fall last night. The literary symbol of rebirth came exactly on cue, and carried me home on the bike, tears of relief blending with the falling rain. I've been smiling like an idiot for almost 24 hours now. I don't care about how things could be better, things are perfect.

posted by paul @ 10:23 PM

I'm still here. And I'm still me. Things are going well in every area but one, and that's the one I keep spinning in my head. The fear isn't in the asking, or in the response, it's knowing how something is going to be, it's the knowing that I'm so afraid of.

I lost my wallet in Birmingham, Alabama. I consider it a two hundred dollar gift to the international homeless population, I think me and the bums are even for a while. Remember when the guy breaks down in the field on Little Miss Sunshine? Remember when he falls into a ball and yells as loud as he can? I have done that on a downtown street in Alabama, and it was one of the most incredible moments of my life. It was the translation of an emotion into an action. It was a step in the right direction.

posted by paul @ 10:04 PM